Facing Fear

Fear Its a strange thing. I spent a lot of my life thinking of myself as a badass. A mover and a shaker. What I am coming to believe is that those things were a big cover for a lot of fear. Once I realized I had so much fear then I notice it in a lot of places. This blog is one of them. Its funny because I have one person that even knows about this blog but I hesitate to write for fear of what people will think. How will I be judged. Will people assume I am exaggerating or trying to get attention? I worked for years of my life building up a wall-one that allowed me to think that I don’t give a shit what people think of me. Yeah, sure. Maybe that is why I have myself so isolated that I rarely leave my home or interact with others. I suppose the exact opposite is true. I care. I care way too much. So part of my plan is to be authentic here and to share. I want to share progress and success but to keep it real I also have to share some of the harder things. One of the things that scares me is if people that know me say “That isn’t how things were”. For example, my mom and I didn’t...

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